It should be easy to drop suffering, anguish, misery. It should not be difficult: you don't want to miserable, But it is other way round. You drop your happiness more easily, so there must be some deep complication behind it. The complication is that from your very childhood you have not been allowed to be happy, to be blissful, to be joyous.
You have been forced to be serious and seriousness implies sadness. You were forced to do things that you never wanted to do. You were helpless, weak, dependent on people; naturally you had to do what they were saying. You did those things unwillingly, miserably in deep resistance. Against yourself you have been forced to do so much that by and by one thing became clear to you: that anything that is against you is right, and anything that is not against you is bound to be wrong. And constantly, this whole upbringing filled you with sadness, which is not natural.
To be joyous is natural, just as to be healthy is natural. When you are healthy, you don't go to the doctor to enquire, why am I healthy? there is no need for any question about your health. But when you are sick you immediately ask, why am I sick? what is the reason, the cause of my disease?
It is perfectly right to ask why you are miserable. It is not right to ask why you are blissful. You have been brought up in an insane society where to be blissful without reason is thought to be madness. If you are simply smiling for no reason at all, people will thing something is loose in your head - why are you smiling? why are you looking so happy? and if you say, I don't know, I am just being happy, you answer will only strengthen their idea that something has gone wrong with you.
But you are miserable, nobody will ask why you are miserable. To be miserable is natural, everybody is. It is nothing special to you. you are not doing something unique.
Unconsciously this idea goes on settling in you, that misery is natural and blissfulness is unnatural. Blissfulness has to be proved. Misery needs no proof. Slowly it seems deeper in you - into your blood, into your bones, into your marrow - although naturally it is against you. So you have been forced to schizophrenic; Something that is against your nature has been forced on you. You have been distracted from yourself into something which you are not.
